It’s been a while...

Hello all, sorry i’ve been so MIA for the past month or so. Truth be told i can’t say i’ve been majorly busy as that isn’t the case in this current situation. I figured i needed to take some time off as i couldn’t write being positive when I wasn’t feeling positive myself.. I went through a stage of besting myself up over the silliest of things I felt like everyone around me didn’t want to talk to me and that I was more of a irritant to be around rather than a joy.

I’m such a people pleaser as i stated in a previous blog post so I tend to worry if I can’t get along with people or i worry that they won’t like me ( hence a reason for over talking I try to fill conversations.) over time i’ve learnt that i’m not here to please everyone and I get i won’t be everyones cup of tea and that is OKAY. In life you will find yourself making friends from all over in so many different situations and circumstances, you will have friendships what you think will last a life time, those that do are precious and keep hold of them. There are others who are in your life for a season they will serve a purpose in your life when it was needed. A quote i noticed recently was, “time decides who you meet in your life, your heart decides who you want in your life and your behaviour decides who stays in your life.”

Some people say that this pandemic will “show who your true friends are.” However, this isn’t always the case because you don’t know what is going through someones mind, they might not message you for a week because they are struggling and don’t want to talk to anyone but to yourself you see this as rude. A little message goes a long way no matter who it is a simple “thinking of you” or “how have you been” they can go one of two ways they will either spill everything and you both can express how each other is coping or they will not want to bother you and just respond like normal. Be kind to the people around you but not forgetting if you lose contact with someone you thought would be there forever it is ok. Don’t beat yourself up, friendships work two ways and sometimes the friendship grows apart when realising you are two different people.

And in a world/room full of people when you feel alone just remember the person in front of you could be in the same boat. Reach out to people take time to get to know new friendships and don’t be afraid of change when you’ve settled for the past. You will never grow as a person if you keep focusing on what once was a thing whereas opening up your mind to see the beauty in each day can make you flourish into something wonderful.

On a more positive note some key tips to make me feel better -

1. I have my health and my family are all okay

2. I passed uni with a high 2:1 ( that’s a B for those who are unsure!)

3. It’s my 21st soon and i’m so excited to be with the people who mean the most

4. I’m determined I will pass my driving soon

A quote from Lalah Delia - “Keep taking time for yourself until you’re you again.”

Skye x